I Tried to Win This War



Life can be rocky sometimes, the path can feel like there is no way out. You feel like you keep going in this downward spiral. That you will never get out of. Just down, down, down, further down, till the light is officially out of your eye sight. You can’t see anything but the darkness. You feel alone. It sweeps over you in waves. Waves of numbness. Waves of anger. Waves of fear. Waves of loneliness. You don’t see a way out. The darkness surrounds you. The pain is real.

These seasons can come out of anywhere. You didn’t see this coming. Then, it becomes a god in your life. Seasons are meant to be that, seasons. They are meant for you to lean on the One and True God. However, sometimes the situation becomes the only thing you can see, the only thing you can feel, and the only thing you can focus on.

“Many are the plans in the mind of a man, but it is the purpose of the LORD that will stand” (Proverbs 19:21, ESV).

Sometimes our blinders are on and you can only see the situation. We also, sometimes go with logical thinking or the human side of thinking. Rather than leaning on God, we take matter into our own hands. Remember God is the God of impossible, but we question God. We think we can speed things up to where we think we should be. We think we can do better than God. You may not know that you are thinking that way but in reality, you are. You are doubting what Jesus did on the cross when you think you can do better than God.

For example, let’s look into our Bible at Genesis 16:1-4, “Now Sarai, Abram’s wife, had borne him no children. She had a female Egyptian servant whose name was Hagar.  And Sarai said to Abram, “Behold now, the Lord has prevented me from bearing children. Go in to my servant; it may be that I shall obtain children by her.” And Abram listened to the voice of Sarai. So, after Abram had lived ten years in the land of Canaan, Sarai, Abram’s wife, took Hagar the Egyptian, her servant, and gave her to Abram her husband as a wife. And he went in to Hagar, and she conceived. And when she saw that she had conceived, she looked with contempt on her mistress.”

Sarai took matters into her hands. She thought she could do God one better. She said in verse 2 that the LORD has up to this point prevented her from bearing children, she said it with her own mouth. I firmly believe that if you say or even think negatively that you are giving the enemy grounds to play on. She didn’t think it through. She didn’t lean on God. She just saw the current situation. She saw what was NOT happening and she moved forward.

(Before moving forward, I want you to know that God changed Abram’s and Sarai’s name in Genesis 17:5 and 17:15)

Let’s move along a bit more to verse 13-15, “That LORD said to Abraham. “Why did Sarah laugh and say, ‘Shall I indeed bear a child, now that I am old?’ Is anything too hard for the LORD? At the appointed time I will return to you, about this time next year, and Sarah shall have a son.” But Sarah denied it, saying, “I did not laugh,” for she was afraid. He said, “No, but you did laugh.”

Let’s take a quick moment to take that in.. When you go through your situation and things get too tough, do you lean on God? Do you turn to Him to help pull you out? Or do you move forward and figure it out in your own way? When you do that, you are denying Him, the same way Sarah denied Him. The same way she took matters into her own hands and became god in her own situation. She didn’t trust God enough. She didn’t believe in His plan.

Life is hard. As Jesus has said in John 16:33, “I have said these things to you, that in me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation. But take heart; I have overcome the world.” Just because we are christian doesn’t mean the days will get easy, somedays it is hard. Where are you focusing that energy when you feel drained? When you feel sad? When you feel lost? When you feel lonely? We need, not to lean on our own understanding but believe what God tells us in the Bible.

“Trust in the LORD with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths. Be not wise in your own eyes; fear the LORD, and turn away from evil. It will be healing to your flesh and refreshment to your bones” (Proverbs 2:10).

Sweet Daughter, open your Bible. These verses, look it up. Read it there. Take the time to take it in as you hold these words in your hands. The Bible is for you and it is for right now. Open your Bible, What is God telling you?

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